Waiting for Life to Begin

When my kids were younger, I remember thinking, “As soon as they sleep through the night, things will get back to normal.” When the terrible twos (followed by the tantruming threes and WTF fours) kicked in, I prayed for strength to hang in there for just one more year. As they approached school age, there were attention issues, teacher conferences, field trips, piano lessons and karate classes to juggle. And with each passing day, I kept thinking, “Any day now, life will get back to normal.”

News flash. This is the new normal.

It’s so easy to fall into the “someday” trap. We tell ourselves that life will begin:

– When I lose 10 pounds
– When I land my dream job
– When I get the guy
– When the kids are older
– When my bills are paid off
– When I buy a house
– When I get a new car
– When I take a vacation

I read a quote once that someone should tell us, as soon as we are born, that we are dying. That way, we would stop waiting for life to begin and get down to the business of actually living it. Well, I must admit that The BadAssMama has fallen back into the trap of “someday” thinking. In the lather, rinse, repeat of life with two-under-the-age-of-six, it’s all too easy to spend my days checking items off of my to-do list rather than actually living my life. Days, months, even years can go by in a blur of diaper changes and bedtime stories.


I don’t know about you, but I want to do more than just exist. I want to live. Today, I commit to do 3 things simply because they make me happy. I’m going to get a manicure (even though it will chip in 2 days) because it makes me feel pampered. I’m going to visit my grandparents and ask them to tell me a story about their youth. I’m going to tell my husband that I can’t imagine life without him (even though I’m a raging bitch to him most days). Long story short, I’m going to life my life like this is my last day on Earth.

Because one day, it will be.

How are YOU going to break the trap of “someday” thinking?