New Year’s Revelations

New Year’s Resolution has such pressure attached to it – like starting a new diet every Monday morning. My New Year’s resolution was always the same: to lose weight. Last year my New Year’s Resolution was to not make a New Year’s Resolution. This year I decided that, instead of resolutions, I am going to write my bucket list goals for 2013. Basically the same thing but with less pressure. I’ve come to realize I still make resolutions but just label them differently.

We all hope that our resolutions will be some sort of amazing catalyst to the next great thing that we do. I joke with my brother Jon and call him “The Catalyst” of my life, because a lot of my creativity stems from bouncing ideas back and forth with him. In 2011 the catalyst in my life was a heartbreaking loss that forever changed me. I had been writing a musical and everything had been falling into place, a composer that could find my melodies on a piano, a small dedicated cast, and a rehearsal space. However, the event forced me to reevaluate my life and my purpose, and my show came to a screeching halt. My dad said to finish the musical because that was the right thing to do. His words gave me perspective to not only go forward with the show but they are also what I think of when I want to give up. There are things that we all need to do, or have to do for our own well being. “You have to do what you were born to do!”

That year I wrote a list of wishes for myself and put them in a special book. They were:

• Get a new car
• Write
• Sing
• Dance
• Act

Even though I had a “No Year’s Resolution” I still accomplished everything on my wish list. 2012 started out with the personal triumph of doing all of those things. I drove in my new car and performed my musical to a sold out house. The 250 seat theatre was taking reservations for a second showing because they were turning people away at my small little musical. My show was called Bucket List of Unbroken Dreams and is about the quest to “unbreak” my broken childhood dreams. The title came from my dream of starring in a long-winded titled Lifetime movie. I also started writing for this awesome website maybe you’ve heard of called What The Flicka?

This year my Bucket List of 2013 Dreams is:

• Be more present in life.
• Make a difference.
• Take some sort of classes.
• Be a part of or organize a singing dancing flash mob – fantastic.
• Create something.
• Focus on the things that I love doing and make me happy.
• Step out of fear!
• Step out in kindness!
• Be patient
• Change and grow
• Do what feels right!
• Trust my gut!
• Laugh a lot! Make others laugh a lot.

It doesn’t matter if you call it a revelation, bucket list, or a wish list. I think in life the most important resolutions are to live your truth, and do what makes you happy. Laugh it up! Love it up! Be grateful and take nothing for granted!

I saw 2012 end on a note of community coming together in the midst of tragedy and loss. I saw people come together and comfort each other. We all have the ability to see the beauty in the world, and do what it takes to preserve that beauty even through sadness and fear. Happy New Year! I hope that 2013 brings hope and healing. Light and love! I hope that 2013 brings everything everyone is praying for and resolutions that truly matter to the heart, soul, mind, body, and spirit. Whatever you do live it up!

“Be the change that you wish to see in the world.” – Gandhi