Banana Pants Crazy

I am clearly Banana Pants Crazy. I have just registered for Vineman 70.3, a half-ironman race on July 14, 2013. A half-Ironman is a 1.2 mile swim, a 56 mile bike, and a 13.1 mile run. Clearly – Banana Pants Crazy.

But I think everyone should have something that they are doing that’s Banana Pants Crazy. Or at least a little out of their comfort zone. Or just not the same thing we are doing every day all the time. Because it reminds us we’re alive.

When my divorce started a few years ago, I woke up to realize that I had stopped being ME. Whoever “me” was had disappeared under all the other things I had been – wife, mother, employee, boss, child, friend…. And, as I went through my divorce and the pain of ripping apart my life, I found a renewal. I wanted to be ME. But I didn’t know where to look.

Even though I have never been an athlete, I joined Team in Training for the 2011 Malibu Triathlon. It was hard. While training, I had my first ever panic attack. And then I had two more. The mentors and the coaches kept telling me that although I was way out of my comfort zone, I was strong enough to do this. I even showed up at practice once, crying hysterically, saying to my coach “You don’t know me very well, but I’m never like this. I’m an Executive Producer of a TV show.” (Strangest words that have ever left my body). But pushing myself through the mental, I finished. I had finished the greatest goal I ever set for myself. Through it, I was able to redefine for myself what I am capable of. Anything. I now believe I am capable of anything. Because what seemed Banana Pants Crazy was now possible.

Gotta have a new goal. Vineman 70.3. Half-Ironman. 1.2 mile swim. 56 mile bike. 13.1 mile run.

Training for it is going to be so hard. 9 months. 5-6 days a week. While I am still a mom. And I will still be an Executive Producer of a TV show. I will still have to commute 1½ hours a day. I will still have friends and obligations and days I don’t feel well…. That’s why this is totally without question BANANA PANTS CRAZY. But it makes me feel like ME. And so I have to do it. Clearly.

[Editor’s Note: Sabrina Wind will be writing regularly, documenting her journey preparing for a half-ironman.]