Felicity Huffman's What the Flicka? Banana Pants Crazy

I am clearly Banana Pants Crazy. I have just registered for Vineman 70.3, a half-ironman race on July 14, 2013. A half-Ironman is a 1.2 mile swim, a 56 mile bike, and a 13.1 mile run. Clearly – Banana Pants Crazy.

But I think everyone should have something that they are doing that’s Banana Pants Crazy. Or at least a little out of their comfort zone. Or just not the same thing we are doing every day all the time. Because it reminds us we’re alive.

When my divorce started a few years ago, I woke up to realize that I had stopped being ME. Whoever “me” was had disappeared under all the other things I had been – wife, mother, employee, boss, child, friend…. And, as I went through my divorce and the pain of ripping apart my life, I found a renewal. I wanted to be ME. But I didn’t know where to look.

Even though I have never been an athlete, I joined Team in Training for the 2011 Malibu Triathlon. It was hard. While training, I had my first ever panic attack. And then I had two more. The mentors and the coaches kept telling me that although I was way out of my comfort zone, I was strong enough to do this. I even showed up at practice once, crying hysterically, saying to my coach “You don’t know me very well, but I’m never like this. I’m an Executive Producer of a TV show.” (Strangest words that have ever left my body). But pushing myself through the mental, I finished. I had finished the greatest goal I ever set for myself. Through it, I was able to redefine for myself what I am capable of. Anything. I now believe I am capable of anything. Because what seemed Banana Pants Crazy was now possible.

Gotta have a new goal. Vineman 70.3. Half-Ironman. 1.2 mile swim. 56 mile bike. 13.1 mile run.

Training for it is going to be so hard. 9 months. 5-6 days a week. While I am still a mom. And I will still be an Executive Producer of a TV show. I will still have to commute 1½ hours a day. I will still have friends and obligations and days I don’t feel well…. That’s why this is totally without question BANANA PANTS CRAZY. But it makes me feel like ME. And so I have to do it. Clearly.

[Editor’s Note: Sabrina Wind will be writing regularly, documenting her journey preparing for a half-ironman.]


In the words of Travers Tobis: "Sabrina Wind is my Mom. She's nice, she's happy, she's always in a good mood. She's an executive producer in television. She's from New Jersey but moved to California. She likes baseball. She's short and small. She makes too many jokes and they're never funny. But I love her." ...